I started this blog on February 19th, 2012. I wrote " I wanted a blog to be about celebrating life - of traveling: finding those secret hidden spots flower gardens and sunset drenched private beaches, of holidays and decorating, fashion and art and design, of music and family and friends."
At the time I was very inspired by "pretty" blogs and tumblrs. I wanted gorgeous pictures and in the beginning I was intent on writing about all the different towns and places I went to working for a real estate agency in Mississippi. It didn't quite happen. It turned into a springboard for my favorite things I saw on Pinterest. Eventually my former college professor told me I need to turn it into a writer's blog. I had been pouring my heart out into Facebook statuses. So that's what I did. At first I'd copy and paste my statuses into new posts. Eventually, I started writing exclusively for my blog.
Over time, I've gotten personal. Maybe more personal than I should. But, I feel like it's important. I've wrote about toxic relationships, the deaths of my father, grandfather, and friend, my own depression and anxiety. It might make the people around me look at me differently. I hope it inspires someone who is going through hard times to keep persevering. Writing from a personal perspective and your life story can be daunting. You're putting a lot of information out there for public consumption. I can understand how this information may end up misconstrued. Reading my blog, I've wrote a lot about toxic relationships. I was in one for 2 and half years. I never named that person, because that's not fair. It's my perspective and it would be wrong to call that person out. I've had to unpublish a couple of posts and save them for myself. I've had to edit things out. The things I went through have made me stronger. The relationship I mentioned through the years is separate from the one I am in now, where I mention his name (Freddie). He makes me very happy.
I've written a lot about the things that have happened to me growing up. I don't ever want it to come across as though I have animosity. That was my story, but working through it, writing it all out - has helped me. I am so thankful for my family. I have mentioned ex-boyfriends, and with the exception of one, I have come to civil terms with them and have forgiven them. The past is past and they are lessons I've learned. If there is someone reading my toxic relationship posts relating to it, maybe they too, can get out. There is life after a bad relationship or even a bad childhood. You can achieve happiness.
I love my family and my friends and my fiance. I have become personal about certain times and situations and if you were a part of it and we are on good terms, please know I meant no harm - just to tell my story, the pain and the triumph of moving on. I don't want anyone I know or love to miscontrue my words or think I hate anyone. My last personal post will be for a long while. I said a lot, maybe enough. For now, I'm going to write about traveling and my interests. I'm gonna leave bad breakups, my difficult teenage years, and crazy early 20's to older posts. It's the present and I have my head faced forward.